i learned three things about myself at this hour.

1. I get overly excited about the stupidest things.
2. I care too much.
3. I watch one of my best friend’s relationships fail, and know that the relationship is going to fail.  

anything i say or do i just get lectured. i post my issues with ACCESS aka welfare and i get a lecture. driving with my own mother, who has a license, I get lectured. I swear next time i take a piss i’m going to get a lecture.

i feel as if you know me better than anyone else. haha yeeahh you’re my only follower. 

when can i not feel guilty about being with the people i grew up? and when can i not feel guilty about seeing my friends? can someone please answer these questions for me? wait… i only have one follower. 

i want one day where i dont get pissed and want to kill someone. im tired of being pissed. move the fuck on and let me live my life

it seems that im not supposed to have friends. i mean i keep fighting everytime i come home and hang out with my friends. i need them to keep me sane. i cant deal with the harsh reality of my life being split between to families. i need to escape from it when i have chances to be my age and enjoy my life a little more. but some people just cant accept my life for what it is. its to the point where i’ll relapse so hard and end up in rehab away from everybody. 

the day that same-sex marriages are accepted, i’ll be a happy camper. 

if people knew what i liked and how i think people would be surprised….

one day i’m going to plaster my room with poster board and get a sharpie and write every thought i have. let it be happy or sad, exciting or boring, i’m going to write anything and everything.